6/2/08

Ohhhh Geeez

Im sitting here waiting to get ready for my first job interview ... it goes for 2 hours!!!! Every job I have ever had I only had to go in a see someone and most of them I knew ... know Im going in feeling like a skinned chicken ... anyone want my nerves today ... I have lots to give away ... butterflies in the stomach and dry mouth and shakey fingers ... nerves are great (NOT) so if you want them leave me a comment and I will pass them on.
Lots happening around here with massive changes. Me looking for work is one of them. Being a stay at home mum has been the best thing ever but Im finding myself bored and to much time on my hands, I have started to take steps to give up smoking, I hate smoking so I need to do something, Im starting to cut down then I will get hypnosis done to see how that works.
Kids are doing great and we have just started our first week of school hoildays, I was looking forward to spending time with them and now I maybe working.
Well I might go get a few things done before I put on the new " Interview clothes"
OHHHH AND A BIG THANK YOU TO JULIE FOR HER SUPPORT !!!
Wish me luck I need it !!!!
Love and hugs
Tracey

5/21/08

Im a blog Slacker

Well once again its been forever since I have blogged but geeeez to little time in the day .. I think about blogging and then I do something else and run out of time.
Soooooo I haven't been up to a great deal. And nothing much exciting has happened soooo what to write about ... thinking ... still thinking .... well my brain has stopped working and I have a total blank grrrrrrr ... so if else fails I will try 10 things that have happened since my last entry.
1) The kids running carnival ... maddy come first in everything ... ebony come 2nd lots ... jack had a great day and tryed really hard.
2)I did 10 layouts
3) We are looking for a four wheel drive
4) Mick sold his ute
5)The kids are all back into sports rosters so we no longer have lives on the weekend.
6)Its been cold !!!
7)I did lots and lots of housework LMAO
8) My cat is driving me nuts
9)Bree went out with her old boyfriend then he dumped her then they went back out together again so then she dumped him ... now shes going out with someone else ... who can keep up?
10) I FINALLY MADE ANOTHER BLOG ENTRY THAT IS TOTALLY BORING !!

Well I better go and lay back on the recliner and veg out ....
Take care

4/3/08

Lifes Ups and Downs

Hey there,

I've been slack posting once again but we have been busy of late.
We had a great easter. We went camping at the dam with Kerrie and Co, Karen and Co .. plus a few others. It was a total blast and good fun getting dirty and roughing it for a few days, Mind you, its just as nice to come home and wash the dirt away then climb into your bed. We had a easter egg hunt for the kids, it was great watching a pile of kids hunting for eggs, we hid them all over the place.

We have welcomed a new family member into our family ... LACEY-ANN-GRACE. Congrats to Billy-Ruth and Co.

We had a bque here last Saturday to watch St Kilda play Carlton ... sadly Carlton lost and I found it rather depressing .. dam St Kilda. We had a blast, it was great to sit back with family and friends and relax and have a few laughs.

I met the Barnes family and have offered my full support. These guys are real fighters, they have went to hell and back yet still take the time to be concerned for others, This Monday coming Shaun will be sentenced, we are all dreading it, I am hoping with all my heart that the judge considers what these 4 boys have suffered and what made Shaun take justice into his own hands. But I will update on Monday with news.

I've had another acceptance by Scrapbooking Memories from the retreat and im looking forward to seeing that layout in print, I miss my girl-friends so much !!! I can't wait to see them all again, Its so annoying that we all live so apart... thank god for forums. Kylie updated her blog last week, I wasnt expecting tears lol ... it was retreat talk, it brought back all those memories as if it was yesterday.

I have totally accepted that I have walked away from a friendship that I thought so much of. Last week I took steps to delete that person from " cyber world" and bits and peices I had of her here I threw out, just like she did to our friendship. Sadly the " cyber world" doesnt show the truth about what a person is really like, I guess you do need to be careful who you trust. I think with friendship that honesty is needed, its sad when a person can give but not take any back. This will be the last time I ever think or mention my lost friendship. But either way I thank her for the moments shared ... good and bad.

Id like to mention the Beautiful Tessa and her Husband Steve who sadly announced news of a pregnancy and sadly miscarried the baby. Tessa is one of my favorite scrap artists and this was such sad news to read. She has been in my thoughts.

Take care.

Tracey

3/16/08

Terri Tagged me

1. Once you are tagged, link back to the person who tagged you.2. Post the RULES on your blog.3. Post 7 weird or random facts about yourself on your blog.4. Tag 7 people and link to them.5. Comment on their blog to let them know they have been tagged.

1) I have 4 tatto's and want more .. I'd totally love to have a lower back tattoo ... ohhh and i often wonder why they dont colour in stretch marks

2)I hate selfish people who only are only out for themselves, some people deserve to be lonely

3)I dream of travel .... I want to see the world

4)I am a jealous person by nature

5)I hate to see people hurting, I feel there pain

6) I dont know how to add music to my blog ... its driving me nuts

7)Id love to live in NY for 12 months




If you read this consider yourelf Tagged , cause the other 8th random fact about me .. Im lazy when it comes to posting ..
hey there kez ... i have to give my lil sis a big hug and kiss ... xxxx Mwwwwahhhh OO

3/6/08

Nothing to post about

Hello is there anybody out there ????

I have nothing to write about really .. its rare that I have not much to say about anything.
Kids are well ... Bree and Jack have to sniffles that seem to be hanging around of late. Maddy and Ebony have been fighting AGAIN .. they are just like mandy and me when we little .. silent fighters .. lots of banging .. bodies covered in red marks ... roughed up hair ... but no noise .. they got it all figured out. I dont say much to them, they must get so sick of each other, but I know they do care about one another and they have some sweet moments, they are just totally different.
Bree is loving the new High school, she is so much more postive. She still has moments but its just the normal teenage stuff.
Jacks ok .. though one complaint on the mum front .. his getting in our bed everynight .. now I think its sweet that he still needs us .. but please could he not kick the blankets off himself all night since his so hot .. maybe just maybe if he slept in his bed instead of between to adults he may not get as hot .. hello jack .. go figure!
Haha Im doing well , I guess once I start typing it gets easier to natter away when no-ones butting in asking for something lol
Ive had 2 more layouts accepted .. one by scrapbook creations .. then scrapbooking memories wanted it as well so I had to reject them but in the end I did another one for them and that is going to be published as well.
Im working on a layout about mum and dads wedding day .. ive been putting it off for to long and decided that I would add some hidden journaling to express my feelings about there marriage ending.
Mick is going well ..( woops neally forgot the hubby)
Well its getting late and sleep is needed.
By the way its not a criminal offence to leave a comment ... Im feeling unloved lol .... and I know I have lurkers reading my blog .. so say hello !!!

3/2/08

New layouts






Im just popping in to add some new layouts. These are some pics from the retreat. I just love some of the photos and hard to figure out what one to scrap next .

2/27/08

The strange week

You know when you have one of those strange weeks .. you kinda feel one thing then the next its something else, your mind seems to be going none stop about nothing in particular. Its been hard to settle down since the retreat, missing everyone is hard. Im struggling to routine myself again .. maybe its my way of telling myself to go with the flow, for far to long everything had to be a certain way and more and more I notice that I'm stressing less about it .. after all we only one life and why bother with the hard stuff.
I have scrapped this week but the layouts are for someone else , who was so happy when i gave them to her that it makes scrapping worth it.
I also changed Breannas school, a big risk but hopefully worth it , Ive seen some small changes of late so heres hoping that shes finding her way.
Im having alot of trouble with jacksons bowels again, so thank goodness he has a doc's app early next month so we can figure out whats going on.
Maddy and Ebony are going well, though they had a huge fight the other night .. all you could hear from there room was alot of banging and them with alot of red marks on them everywhere ... and lots of but she did it.
We've had some news about the " MF" case .. Michael received a letter from the prosecutor that stated his condition. There was alot of tears when the letter arrived, the feelings of annoyance and anger took over for awhile ... heres what it said ...
Cognitively he is not doing well. He is disoriented in time and place. He does not recall his time spent in hospital. He does recall some matters previous to the assault. He can talk and respond to conversation. He can walk.
He has some eyesight but has severe facial injury and brain injury. He will need care for the rest of his life.

Ok so that was from his doctor ... How confusing is that letter, one minute its saying his stuffed the next his walking and talking. Even the prosecutor is confused .. he said wait till he meets our doctor .. there is hope yet!
Its frustrating and I think the worst part is the ups and downs that we have .. its tough sometimes .. We both just want it over and done with. Anyway .. no point dwelling on something you cant do anything about hey !
Ok I better head off to bed its getting late.
Don't forget to always look on the bright side of life .. be yourself .. stay away from selfish and negative people and never lower yourself to there level. Have pity for them, they live there life for themselves and in the end you'll find that you never really meant anything to them, you are worth more than that.
Love Trace
XXXXXX

2/24/08

Retreat news

Well Ive been pretty slack and have written in my blog about the Melbourne retreat.

I had a stressed out night before I left, I had a few Sm's from Qantas with flight changes, So Kylie says to me " Just ring them " so after a half hour freak me out call with an operator it turns out to be something to do with a delayed flight and the need to use a smaller plane and changing seats etc .. so by the end of the call she notes next to my name not to change my flight due to being a terrified flyer .... so all up my flight was delayed 2 hrs which made me "last in" ... karma as Julie told me for stirring steph.... so anyway after a sleepless night after lots of msn and Sm's I wake up bright and early jump in the shower all but jumping up and down with the excitement.... once sorted mick drives me to the airport .. i walk in the door in tears .. mick gave a quick peek on the cheek and bolts out the door ... here's me in pure terror dumped by mick at the airport lol.
So the flight was OK ... but when I seen Melbourne from in the air my smile couldn't be wiped off my face.
So ... I'm at the airport thinking omg what now .. where are they .. what am i doing ... omg omg omg .. i ask around to find out where the luggage is and off i head to my friends .. and there they are standing waiting for me ... so heres little ole me all but running to them .. hugs all round ...( I was the shortest)
So we cab it to melb , straight to the hotel to dump our bags and off we go .. the most amazing part was that we just chatted as if it was a regular thing ... there was no place for nerves or self doubt .. this was real!!!
We walked and talked ... walked and talked with lots of laughter to top it off ... and only abit of shopping ... Ohhh and i had sms from the kids with confessing there love or complaining about what ever was happening at home.
I loved on fday night when we was all getting ready for tea ... it was getting late but we'd get so busy chatting and having a few wines that time didnt stand still for us.... now tea was lush .. with lots more laughter .. and the most yummy ribs I have ever eaten, and more laughter and at my disgust was given a "Bib" to eat my meal ... OMG not very lady like ... but OMG I ate the whole lot it tasted so nice.
When we got back to the hotel we was all tired after little sleep ... so much walking and talking it was sleep time .
I woke up before the sun was up , Julie was out cold .. here's me sleeping on the sofa with her not wanting to wake her up but I was hanging out for a coffee, smoke ... ( and wanting everyone else to wake up) ... so I layed there till the sun come up and thought that its I'm gunna climb over Julie to get outside for a smoke ... then climbed back over her for a coffee.... then climbed back into bed and dozed abit while i waited for everyone to wake up.
We had a big day planned ... after having a " Big breakfast" in the Lil alley way that me and Steph had been searching for. We headed to St Kilda beach .. the tram ride there was gross because the trams are over yuk... once we got there we went to the front of Luna park .. out the cameras came ... and out they stayed. I asked a couple of road workers to take a picture for us ... so he takes the picture (with his workmates staring at us) he comes over to us and asks us about 'us' and in the end I just said to him " we are from lesbian chat" this overweight guy had no idea what to say ... we all cracked up and off we walked lol ..
On the beach was our photo shoot time without the photographer lol so the public become our friends with Steph running around saying ' Its OK we are scrapbookers'.... I have to mention that we went and had a fruit smoothie ... omg the lemon one is omg
ohhhh and it was time to take tegan to the tram station ... which didnt make things easy lol when we kept searching for her lol
Sooooo after all that I'm like dog tired because I didn't get enough sleep ... but the beautiful steph spoilt me and did my make up and she made me feel 100% better... so once again we are so busy having our wines and chatter that its getting late again and we planned to go up the Eureka tower ... so after our lazy tram ride we get there ... Kylie had us jumping in the elevator .. which I'm sure she did to see our " big boobs" bounce. ( Since hers are baby's) Everyone loved the view and I'm sure that we all had a quiet moment taking it all in and having thoughts to ourselves.
OK so then we go out for tea at the casino... Kylie shares a moment with us that I will never ever forget for the rest of my life .. her amazing words and the way she expressed herself left us all in tears and this was the " moment" that was truly unforgettable and it was something that made me really think about how much i take for granted.... It also gave me a better outlook on life itself and how precious it is. Thank you once again Kylie for the " Moment"... i sat there after that and felt totally and utterly wanting to tell my family how much they mean to me and the importance they have in my life.
OK ... so we eat .. we check out a delish sweets shop and get our desserts ready to head back to hotel for wine ... dessert and face masks. But omg I'm telling you I was sooooo tired.... i slept on the sofa and I think I was just about to drool on my pillow out comes steph with pillow and all ... And all you could hear was ( as steph says) terri sucking in the walls snoring ... omg she was so loud .. I'm sure me and steph laughed ourselves to sleep...
The worst part about the trip was standing out the front of the hotel with tears saying goodbye ... it went to quick ... and i missed everyone from the second i walked away ... i got so many Sm's on Sunday... with I'm leaving ..I'm home ... and most of all " I miss you already". I still don't think I have settled back into routine ... i wish the girls just lived a few blocks away instead of " states away"
So ... OK I have rambled on ... Ive added no pics cause mine have been seen by those that need to see them lol.
Girls i miss you to the moon and back ... thank you thank you thank you for being such amazing and beautiful friends , who aren't selfish who put others before themselves, who love you for who you are. I know that you 5 girls are now lifetime friends and I cherish our friendship as if you was my family.... Love ya !!!!
Trace ( your SPECIAL friend)

2/12/08

Im so excitied

Well this is it, In 2 more sleeps I will be waking in the wee hrs to drive an hour away to catch my flight to Melbourne, It seems like so long ago that we started talking about meeting, and finally its about to happen. We have not only become great friends via scrapbooking but friends by getting to know each other on a personal level. I almost had a downer on the trip but I refuse to let it bother or upset me, its about 6 people getting together and having a good time, Im more than happy to leave the crap behind ( including 1 husband 4 kids 1 dog 1 cat 1 rabbit 1 cocktiel) ... not that they are crap lol maybe all the crap I have to do for them is though !!!! Plus some of us have had the kids home for xmas break and oh my we deserve a hoilday lol.
Julie rang me durning the week which would have to be a highlight of the week, I truely felt as if she was a " friend" we spend quiet alot of time on the net chatting together or complaing about the hubby or kids so I guess we know each other lol. Ive met Kylie and her kids and loved her to bits and her kids are so sweet ( yes kylie they are lol)
Terri and me have had a few moments but that has built the trust in our friendship and im looking forward to he shouting me a drink since she owes me one .. , Im dying to hear Stephs voice and meeting our adopted amercian friend, and Im hanging out to have the " sex" talk with Tegan and discuss with her that yes us 30 odd yr olds still have a roll in the hay once in awhile ... ( when we can get the kids to stay in there own beds)
We have a huge day planned on saturday and the 6 of us will be worn out. Here we come melbourne
By Sunday we will have the next one sorted and Hopefully Ali can join us, and some of the new girls that have joined sb.com. Thanks to those 5 girls who are coming, for making the effort, its nice to know that we really are good friends not just online chatters.
Ok so my next post will be the big omg i had so much fun blah blah .. the weekend will go to fast and before we know it one by one we will fly home ... its to depressing!
( should I mention thats if I even get there or make it home ...DID I MENTION I HATE PLANES .... NO THEN ... I HATE PLANE ...( If i was meant to fly god would have given to me wings)
ok I feel better after that ( oh and incase something does happen up in the big ole sky .. I love ya be happy in life dont worry about the small stuff

1/25/08

New layout

Its rare but it does happen .... posting in my blog 2 days in a row ..... lol but im just adding my latest layout ....

SORRY LAYOUT REMOVED FOR PUBLICATION ... SEE ME IN SCRAPBOOKING MEMORIES

1/24/08

Hey there

Hello,

Not alot to update .... but I may find something to ramble on about.

Ok the kids are still on school hoildays and they go back in a few weeks, Im surprised they havent been to bad over the hoildays , and there hasnt been a great deal of stress with them.
We've spent alot of time at the local beach. I finally after many years of wanting to swam across the local swimming spot. Ive hated water for along time but I finally faced my fear, Im so glad I did it, its like a weight taken off my shoulders.
I have been doing really well the last week or 2. Alot less stress , I cant be bothered with it anymore.


I havent scrapped for awhile but I plan to tonight yay !!!
On Saturday we are going camping for a couple of nights up the bush so Im looking forward to that.

Ohhhh what sad news about Heath Ledger .... Perfect actor and a sad lose to the world.
Anyway thats a quick ramble ... Im not getting anything done sitting here.
Hello to my cous Craig ...

1/11/08

This is my downer

Well I read other blogs and people write about the good and the bad so today Im going to write about the bad ..
I'm out of sorts ...
Today SB appears in court for the MF bashing and I really wanted to go but mum couldn't go with me .. instead of finding somebody else I have just feel to pieces.
I think I can explain myself by saying that Mick struggles with expressing himself so I think today I was looking for emotion strangely , I was looking for something , We have this dark cloud hanging over our head that maybe has always been there , but over the last 6 mths its always there , it seems we have one thing after another go wrong and that MF will once get away with what his done. No child should have to suffer sexual abuse, the system does not protect children , sentences are light , the abuser all but gets away with it, they maybe known as a child predator , but they get to go along with there life, yet the victims live in a dark world, its always in the back of the mind, you try and hide your hatred but it never leaves you, the fear of the unknown is always with you because some sick human being took trust from you.At some point you try and make peace with yourself but you know whats out there and what some people are capable of doing , you learn to trust no-one you are always thinking the worst ... yet as I said a child abuser gets to keep living there life with there sick thoughts and needs.
I wonder if its true once an abuser always an abuser , in our family .. the abuser continue on with there life , they say they have reasons , they say get on with your life ... but who repairs the damage .. who says im sorry this has happened.
We are supposed to trust a legal system that time and time again lets victims down and they wonder why it takes people so long to come forward.
The victim once again becomes a victim. I dont have victim written on my forehead , I was made one ... not by choice but because somebody forced me to be that.
I feel like I have a fight of my own ... I dont know why , I get angry , I get lost in it all , sometimes I get so overwhelmed by it , its so hard to walk away from it.
So my problem is , Mick is dealing with it his way, SB dealt with it his way, Why can I not find my way, Why am I so lost in it all.
Im trying to see that SB took the better way out, thats going to be his justice, because he had something taken from him ... is innocence ... so he took something back .... Anger, Hatred.
Ok so now I feel better, I have vented what is in my head.
To all you that know how it feels to have innocence taken away from you, Protect your own, protect all children from the hands of a sick human, that will be your justice.

1/10/08

Special Mention

Heres a Special mention to a special person !!!!!!


MR CRAIG HENRICKS

His just a really nice guy who keeps a check on my blog ... his my special cousin and I love'm a whole lot ....

1/7/08

happy new year



Well once again Ive been slack writing in the blog.
We had a great christmas though I had a few to many drinks the night before and lets just say that it was difficult going to bed at 3 in the morning and then 3 half hrs later being awoken by the kids wanting to open presents..... i cold shower come in handy to wake me up .
We shared christmas lunch with Michaels Family, Lunch was totally delish. In the afternoon I joined my family to catch up with everybody.

New years eve was spent in Burnie ... we just had some tea and watched the fireworks at 9 .. then went to Allison and Dwaynes for drink then headed home just before midnight.

We've had some hot weather so the pool has been getting used and abused. The kids have been enjoying school hoildays.

I payed for my tickets yesterday for my trip to Melbourne in Feb to meet and catch up with my Aussie friends from scrapbook.com .... we are all so excitied ... a few of us had a tough 07 so it will be great to get away and be human ... ( with no kids)

Anyway I might go and get some sleep ... heres 2 new layouts ... both of the Beautiful kara ...Again ..

Take care everybody in 2008 I wish you all the best

Love ... Hugs
Trace