2/27/08

The strange week

You know when you have one of those strange weeks .. you kinda feel one thing then the next its something else, your mind seems to be going none stop about nothing in particular. Its been hard to settle down since the retreat, missing everyone is hard. Im struggling to routine myself again .. maybe its my way of telling myself to go with the flow, for far to long everything had to be a certain way and more and more I notice that I'm stressing less about it .. after all we only one life and why bother with the hard stuff.
I have scrapped this week but the layouts are for someone else , who was so happy when i gave them to her that it makes scrapping worth it.
I also changed Breannas school, a big risk but hopefully worth it , Ive seen some small changes of late so heres hoping that shes finding her way.
Im having alot of trouble with jacksons bowels again, so thank goodness he has a doc's app early next month so we can figure out whats going on.
Maddy and Ebony are going well, though they had a huge fight the other night .. all you could hear from there room was alot of banging and them with alot of red marks on them everywhere ... and lots of but she did it.
We've had some news about the " MF" case .. Michael received a letter from the prosecutor that stated his condition. There was alot of tears when the letter arrived, the feelings of annoyance and anger took over for awhile ... heres what it said ...
Cognitively he is not doing well. He is disoriented in time and place. He does not recall his time spent in hospital. He does recall some matters previous to the assault. He can talk and respond to conversation. He can walk.
He has some eyesight but has severe facial injury and brain injury. He will need care for the rest of his life.

Ok so that was from his doctor ... How confusing is that letter, one minute its saying his stuffed the next his walking and talking. Even the prosecutor is confused .. he said wait till he meets our doctor .. there is hope yet!
Its frustrating and I think the worst part is the ups and downs that we have .. its tough sometimes .. We both just want it over and done with. Anyway .. no point dwelling on something you cant do anything about hey !
Ok I better head off to bed its getting late.
Don't forget to always look on the bright side of life .. be yourself .. stay away from selfish and negative people and never lower yourself to there level. Have pity for them, they live there life for themselves and in the end you'll find that you never really meant anything to them, you are worth more than that.
Love Trace
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2/24/08

Retreat news

Well Ive been pretty slack and have written in my blog about the Melbourne retreat.

I had a stressed out night before I left, I had a few Sm's from Qantas with flight changes, So Kylie says to me " Just ring them " so after a half hour freak me out call with an operator it turns out to be something to do with a delayed flight and the need to use a smaller plane and changing seats etc .. so by the end of the call she notes next to my name not to change my flight due to being a terrified flyer .... so all up my flight was delayed 2 hrs which made me "last in" ... karma as Julie told me for stirring steph.... so anyway after a sleepless night after lots of msn and Sm's I wake up bright and early jump in the shower all but jumping up and down with the excitement.... once sorted mick drives me to the airport .. i walk in the door in tears .. mick gave a quick peek on the cheek and bolts out the door ... here's me in pure terror dumped by mick at the airport lol.
So the flight was OK ... but when I seen Melbourne from in the air my smile couldn't be wiped off my face.
So ... I'm at the airport thinking omg what now .. where are they .. what am i doing ... omg omg omg .. i ask around to find out where the luggage is and off i head to my friends .. and there they are standing waiting for me ... so heres little ole me all but running to them .. hugs all round ...( I was the shortest)
So we cab it to melb , straight to the hotel to dump our bags and off we go .. the most amazing part was that we just chatted as if it was a regular thing ... there was no place for nerves or self doubt .. this was real!!!
We walked and talked ... walked and talked with lots of laughter to top it off ... and only abit of shopping ... Ohhh and i had sms from the kids with confessing there love or complaining about what ever was happening at home.
I loved on fday night when we was all getting ready for tea ... it was getting late but we'd get so busy chatting and having a few wines that time didnt stand still for us.... now tea was lush .. with lots more laughter .. and the most yummy ribs I have ever eaten, and more laughter and at my disgust was given a "Bib" to eat my meal ... OMG not very lady like ... but OMG I ate the whole lot it tasted so nice.
When we got back to the hotel we was all tired after little sleep ... so much walking and talking it was sleep time .
I woke up before the sun was up , Julie was out cold .. here's me sleeping on the sofa with her not wanting to wake her up but I was hanging out for a coffee, smoke ... ( and wanting everyone else to wake up) ... so I layed there till the sun come up and thought that its I'm gunna climb over Julie to get outside for a smoke ... then climbed back over her for a coffee.... then climbed back into bed and dozed abit while i waited for everyone to wake up.
We had a big day planned ... after having a " Big breakfast" in the Lil alley way that me and Steph had been searching for. We headed to St Kilda beach .. the tram ride there was gross because the trams are over yuk... once we got there we went to the front of Luna park .. out the cameras came ... and out they stayed. I asked a couple of road workers to take a picture for us ... so he takes the picture (with his workmates staring at us) he comes over to us and asks us about 'us' and in the end I just said to him " we are from lesbian chat" this overweight guy had no idea what to say ... we all cracked up and off we walked lol ..
On the beach was our photo shoot time without the photographer lol so the public become our friends with Steph running around saying ' Its OK we are scrapbookers'.... I have to mention that we went and had a fruit smoothie ... omg the lemon one is omg
ohhhh and it was time to take tegan to the tram station ... which didnt make things easy lol when we kept searching for her lol
Sooooo after all that I'm like dog tired because I didn't get enough sleep ... but the beautiful steph spoilt me and did my make up and she made me feel 100% better... so once again we are so busy having our wines and chatter that its getting late again and we planned to go up the Eureka tower ... so after our lazy tram ride we get there ... Kylie had us jumping in the elevator .. which I'm sure she did to see our " big boobs" bounce. ( Since hers are baby's) Everyone loved the view and I'm sure that we all had a quiet moment taking it all in and having thoughts to ourselves.
OK so then we go out for tea at the casino... Kylie shares a moment with us that I will never ever forget for the rest of my life .. her amazing words and the way she expressed herself left us all in tears and this was the " moment" that was truly unforgettable and it was something that made me really think about how much i take for granted.... It also gave me a better outlook on life itself and how precious it is. Thank you once again Kylie for the " Moment"... i sat there after that and felt totally and utterly wanting to tell my family how much they mean to me and the importance they have in my life.
OK ... so we eat .. we check out a delish sweets shop and get our desserts ready to head back to hotel for wine ... dessert and face masks. But omg I'm telling you I was sooooo tired.... i slept on the sofa and I think I was just about to drool on my pillow out comes steph with pillow and all ... And all you could hear was ( as steph says) terri sucking in the walls snoring ... omg she was so loud .. I'm sure me and steph laughed ourselves to sleep...
The worst part about the trip was standing out the front of the hotel with tears saying goodbye ... it went to quick ... and i missed everyone from the second i walked away ... i got so many Sm's on Sunday... with I'm leaving ..I'm home ... and most of all " I miss you already". I still don't think I have settled back into routine ... i wish the girls just lived a few blocks away instead of " states away"
So ... OK I have rambled on ... Ive added no pics cause mine have been seen by those that need to see them lol.
Girls i miss you to the moon and back ... thank you thank you thank you for being such amazing and beautiful friends , who aren't selfish who put others before themselves, who love you for who you are. I know that you 5 girls are now lifetime friends and I cherish our friendship as if you was my family.... Love ya !!!!
Trace ( your SPECIAL friend)

2/12/08

Im so excitied

Well this is it, In 2 more sleeps I will be waking in the wee hrs to drive an hour away to catch my flight to Melbourne, It seems like so long ago that we started talking about meeting, and finally its about to happen. We have not only become great friends via scrapbooking but friends by getting to know each other on a personal level. I almost had a downer on the trip but I refuse to let it bother or upset me, its about 6 people getting together and having a good time, Im more than happy to leave the crap behind ( including 1 husband 4 kids 1 dog 1 cat 1 rabbit 1 cocktiel) ... not that they are crap lol maybe all the crap I have to do for them is though !!!! Plus some of us have had the kids home for xmas break and oh my we deserve a hoilday lol.
Julie rang me durning the week which would have to be a highlight of the week, I truely felt as if she was a " friend" we spend quiet alot of time on the net chatting together or complaing about the hubby or kids so I guess we know each other lol. Ive met Kylie and her kids and loved her to bits and her kids are so sweet ( yes kylie they are lol)
Terri and me have had a few moments but that has built the trust in our friendship and im looking forward to he shouting me a drink since she owes me one .. , Im dying to hear Stephs voice and meeting our adopted amercian friend, and Im hanging out to have the " sex" talk with Tegan and discuss with her that yes us 30 odd yr olds still have a roll in the hay once in awhile ... ( when we can get the kids to stay in there own beds)
We have a huge day planned on saturday and the 6 of us will be worn out. Here we come melbourne
By Sunday we will have the next one sorted and Hopefully Ali can join us, and some of the new girls that have joined sb.com. Thanks to those 5 girls who are coming, for making the effort, its nice to know that we really are good friends not just online chatters.
Ok so my next post will be the big omg i had so much fun blah blah .. the weekend will go to fast and before we know it one by one we will fly home ... its to depressing!
( should I mention thats if I even get there or make it home ...DID I MENTION I HATE PLANES .... NO THEN ... I HATE PLANE ...( If i was meant to fly god would have given to me wings)
ok I feel better after that ( oh and incase something does happen up in the big ole sky .. I love ya be happy in life dont worry about the small stuff