Todays Antics

Ok today started of with some searching with kez .. looking for our sister ... we thought we found her but no that wasn't to be. We have told mum its time to put in a missing persons report so that we atleast find out if shes ok, despite everything that has happened we still love our sister and only want good things for her. I guess if she doesn't want to have any contact that we accept that she is taking this journey her way and that maybe one day she will return to us in someway. Its the not knowing that hurts ... that somewhere out there is our sister and we have no idea of her life, sufferings etc. Its been almost 12 mths since we seen her, and 9 mths since 3 beautiful kids have heard from there mother. We know how it makes us feel let alone her children. The feeling you get inside just thinking about her is enough to make you cry, you know that drugs can control everything a person does, but its hard to separate yourself from that, when all you want to do is fix it .. help her ... show her that you do love her. It makes me wonder what deep hurt or pain/confusion that caused them to turn to drugs, if only they realised that it worsens the problem and that it only numbs the pain. So like I said hopefully mum follows through with the missing persons report, maybe we can find out something that way .. maybe not. Either way I know how we feel, lets hope that deep down she knows that we love her and miss her ... one day I will get to see her laugh again ... my Mr Ed.

So after all this ... Mum, Auntie Maree, Kez and me went and had lunch.... Kez made me each this delish choc pudding ... ohhhh it was heaven.
It was nice to get out with the girls, do abit of shopping and sit down and relax over a drink and lunch.
Bree went for a job today as a jun shop assistant... she went really well. I would love to see her get it, her age could be a problem but ya never know.
The funny thing that happened today was my lovely jack ... me and kez found some cheapie canvas shoes so I brought jack a pair .. he gets home from a friends and I give him the shoes .. so he acts like there the best thing ... mum I love them etc ... Anway after tea we was going for a walk and Jack wanted to ride his bike that was in the backyard ... he says to me mum go get my bike because I dont want to get grass on my shoes ... so I did the big Lmao ... in his disgust ... he walks/storms through the house , takes his shoes off at the front door, walks back through to the back door .. heads outside on the grass to get his bike with just his socks on ... rides the bike around the front ... then comes inside to put his shoes on ... then we can go lol ... hmmm tomorrow he will go to school, come home with grass stained new shoes ... hmmmm
So on that note Im going to have a coffee and head to bed, I plan to scrap tomorrow.
Cheers for now.
Tracey